Let me introduce myself, name is Troy. As you may have been able to tell by the header or the profile data this is my personal log of thought. It will also be comprised of Video Game Reviews as well as other news related material. Doing this will hopefully prepare me in the future for my goals in the industry, what industry to be exact is as of now still undecided. I have specific companies that I am researching and looking forward to. However, like anything else it will be a case consisting of dice or “the luck of the draw”. I don’t put to much faith in fate, its hard though, when fate can in turn be defined generically, so for my predicament it suits me fine. I will have to wash my mouth out with soap when I get done here though after using that word.

To be clear this first blog is not merely an attempt at beginner’s levity. I implore you to disregard the length and seeming breadth of the document and absorb the information almost in an osmotic fashion. There is much to take in here. I figure however if you’re going to start off its wise not to put down just any piece of information.  This contemplation had come along after much consideration, hopefully those afflicted may also realize that this was written when I was sick and feeling rather gloomy. But I believe it holds some truths. Please consider this a work merely reminiscent of philosophical debate rather than a cry for help. Don’t worry I have since recovered, without further ado; I ask you direct your attention at my personal blog for the day.

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I recently had a bout with my nasal mucous. I dont have Cystic Fibrosis though, actually I have Ectodermal Dysplasia, which has similar symptoms of the nasal passageways, after reading a great deal I began to question the existence of the Homosapien in our most frail form.

So to begin if you need any education in regards to ED just visit www.nfed.org or you can visit the WebMD site and type in the previously mentioned terminology.

But my question was spurned out of negative contemplation for my own predicament, the level of severity which cannot compare to what those with Cystic Fibrosis have to endure. But I have various other issues myself. I was thinking about our establishment and health as a race (Homosapien). It seems to me that our necessity for procreation wrought obviously out of innate emotion since the beginning of our birth has somehow allowed us to self perpetuate beyond natures confines our expectancy of life. I began to realize logically if there were no medications or health care establishments that those of us afflicted with genetic mutations would more than likely have died at a very young age. Leaving those suited for nature's trials alive, survival of the fittest if you will...

I commented this to my mother who somehow felt guilty in repose of genetic makeup. Thus commenting how she should have been tested and how my existence was meaningless, of course this was in the heat of the moment and her response was sarcastic at its height. But to be honest to ensure and prevail our existence as a healthy race of beings, would it not be safe to say that those who are not fit to live should not live? Those of you with large hearts would arguably respond quickly with a hasty NO, they should live. But sit back for a moment, if I was allowed the severity of death in my current predicament the only thing that would scare me would be the painful death, not the end result of such actions. Actually I would invite such a relief from the tribulations I inherently endure. To constantly care for oneself in the manner we are subjected becomes a nuisance, sometimes it is rather nice to be alive we begin to take things for granted (all be it short) this air of relief defines to me the type of life someone with the basic necessitation of self preservation the body is expected to provide on a constant basis would have.

Would we along with major corporations be then guilty of self preservation, thus spurring perpetuation of genetic disorders throughout our genetic line? We then are subject to no choice in regards to life or death. However we are bound by laws and rules structured around the basest individual those who have nothing wrong with them genetically speaking but are merely depressed. However being of the same genome we are also to abide by these laws.

However it has become common practice to save every living thing until it is at an inch of its life and maintain it until machines or medicine cannot provide comfort or quality of life or even sustain life. So we spend a great deal of money in regards to these exploits, I have to give it to nature though we have been challenged to explore these issues and somehow Band-Aid the problem. Rather than allowing genetic manipulation at the site before birth by fixing the source we are forced to allow birth a chance and thus inevitably our offspring would most likely be exposed to such defects as well. We are faced with several choices then,

1. I would like to have a child; I would like to know what my genetic makeup would supply me with my specific partner as I am most intrigued by some innate necessitation. Where does this stem from? Id, is that you?

2. I would love to genetically engineer my child to be free from defects, but I have to face the religious clergy in regards to playing god. As it is somehow the emotion of the religious groups to assume the worst out of the nature of man. I can be most assured in assuming that the stereotype associated with genetic engineering is in regards to making your child up like a special ordered laptop. I want blonde hair blue eyes... oops I mean Brown hair, that wasn't intended to be a eugening comment. Those afflicted with genetic disorders would love to just have a kid, or so I would think.

3. What is the purpose of life? We haven't really ever been able to answer this question; it’s too relevant to the individual. But I find no serious purpose in perpetuation on my own defect. Thus my need for procreation seems pointless. It is the objective of most species to be fruitful, no? If I do not retain this ability in a reasonable sense then I have no real need. I can educate myself and become whatever I wish. However everyone has this basic aptitude to do so, so when does materialism and education tower high above quality of life and love? I use love here generally because it's easier to understand this term than me using words like genetic attraction, selective mating, and procreation. If relevant to the individual education/experiences and materialism are not important, then what is left? Love you say? Hmm depends on the person but you are then questioned as to whether your love is based of the human instinct of attraction and procreation. If the main reason to sustain ones life is to copulate and be fruitful and the inevitability of offspring caring your gene is high, then what is the purpose of life what are you left with?

I believe being part of the "system" not in a derogatory sense, with laws based of the basest human ability for self sustainment, we are a race or species of our own, subjected to the lofty obligations of society. I believe if we continue to perpetuate our existence we would then continue to possibly deteriorate the human species as a whole. The only thing that maintains our existence is the loss of such a loved one or family member and the emotions that surround it, but just like that deer your ran over or the thousands of humans that die each year you don't know, your logical sense takes the best of you and you begin to rationalize the existence of those who departed, they are less important and become expendable over a period of time.

Thanks for listening
Troy W.